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Coping with PTSD Symptoms: Tired of Feeling Emotionally Flat or Exhausted?

Suffering emotional exhaustion, and living with a lack of joy are common consequences of trauma, and some of the most frequent symptoms of PTSD.

Spring is here, and many people experience an increased sense of rejuvenation and hope.

For others, the season is a reminder of what is missing in their lives. Despite the lengthening days and the flowering trees, there remains a sense of emptiness.

Perhaps, despite your best intentions, you can’t muster the energy for the creative projects or invigorating activities that used to bring you joy.

If this how it is for you, you are not alone.

Suffering emotional exhaustion, and living with a lack of joy are common consequences of trauma, and some of the most frequent symptoms of PTSD.

It doesn’t seem fair that in addition to having experienced hardship, a person living through trauma should also experience a diminished zest for life. Nonetheless, that is often how it is.

There are two big reasons why trauma seems to affects people in this way:

1.     Many try to cope with the feelings of hopelessness, grief, terror and shame by stuffing them down or locking them away.

Unfortunately,  we can’t choose which emotions to suppress. Along with keeping all those difficult emotions at bay, we also shut away joy, creativity, connectedness and courage

 2.  For some, the very nature of the trauma taught them that hope, joy and creativity are  dangerous.

Perhaps you were harmed worse when you showed initiative, seemed more alive, were compassionate to someone else, or fought back.

If one or both of these reasons seem to fit, you may feel at a loss for what to do.

Reclaiming your emotional life:

The key is in taking small steps to restore your emotional life. 

Accept where you are:

A good way to begin is by acknowledging your ambivalence. On the one hand, you want to be able to feel positive emotions, but on the other hand, you may be scared of your difficult feelings. Take some time to write about that dilemma. Simply putting words to this conflict may change things. 

See if you can access a sense of compassion and appreciation toward the fear-- after all it is trying to protect you from further hurt. 

Notice the beauty of nature:

If we were hurt by people, nature is often a source of solace and calm. Take some time, every day even if it is just for a minute, to notice the beauty around you. The sunset, the emerging flowers, the quality of the light. Let that awareness settle into you, soothe you.

Allow yourself to be moved, even a little bit, by this beauty. It can’t hurt you.

Engage in small creative or nourishing activities:

Do a small part of an activity that you used to enjoy.

For instance, if you would like to paint, but feel blocked, perhaps spend some time mixing paints or putting some colours on paper. If you liked to cook, maybe prepare a simple salad. If you liked to hike, maybe go for a short walk in the park. Notice, as you are doing it, that this is now. You are ok. Breathe. 

Don’t place expectations on yourself to do more, just be with what is.

When to seek help

For some, engaging in these kinds of gentle activities jump starts their emotional life, and they feel increasingly alive and engaged.

For others, the suggestions may seem like mumbo-jumbo,  or trying them out feels overwhelming, or makes no difference.

If this is your situation, it does not mean that you are flawed in any way. It simply means that you have some very good reasons for needing to keep emotions in check.  This can be the time to seek help-- to experience what trauma treatment can do for you.

Together with a good PTSD therapist, you can gently unpack those reasons, and start to feel safe with all of your emotions, no matter how challenging this may feel now.

I invite you to check out the informative blogs and videos, interesting self tests, and other tools on my website (www.oceansidetherapy.ca). When you are ready, please contact me. I look forward to hearing from you! 

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The Hidden Cause of PTSD: Shame That Keeps You Feeling Stuck, Alone and Hopeless

Shame is the feeling that you are fundamentally flawed in some way. That you are worthless, not deserving of love, kindness, and care.

Have you ever felt that way?

Shame is the feeling that you are fundamentally flawed in some way. That you are worthless, not deserving of love, kindness, and care.

Have you ever felt that way?

Most of us get hijacked by “shame attacks” from time to time. 

 Sometimes the trigger is clear is to us, whereas at other times we are completely blindsided by burning embarrassment, or intense feelings of  being bad.

If you have experienced trauma in your life, odds are that the feeling of shame is familiar to you.  It is often the hidden cause of the most persistent symptoms of PTSD and complex trauma. 

Maybe you are plagued by regret. You've made some mistakes, and instead of thinking "ok, I'll make amends" or "I'll do better from now on" you become mired in in shame, feeling that you are "always bad",  "so stupid" or other derogatory ideas about yourself. 

Perhaps shame will overtake you when you are the centre of attention such as talking in front of a crowd of people, or standing up for something you believe in.  

 Or, it may happen when someone close to you looks at you with a certain intensity. Often, as you are feeling close to someone, these feelings of not deserving love or care can get very strong.

Frequently,  you may get flooded with feelings of shame if someone in authority, such as your boss, or someone you really respect, treats you with indifference, disregard or contempt.

Surprisingly,  reaching for your cherished goals or  most valued dreams tend to really make shame rear its head.

Here's the surprising idea--- no matter how horrible shame feels, it is not your enemy. However strange it may sound, your feelings of shame are most likely trying to protect you.

My feelings of worthlessness are protecting me?

Let me explain. 

Likely, you learned to feel shame as a very young child.  Those feelings were born in circumstances where you weren’t treated as you should.  But, you couldn’t afford to recognize that the people around you were unsafe, or didn’t protect you. 

So, instead, you shouldered the blame for your maltreatment.  This probably was not a  conscious thought, but rather a deeply ingrained feeling about being bad and not deserving kindness.

That was very useful at the time. It kept you feeling safer, and more connected in situations that otherwise would have been intolerable.  If you feel that “bad things happened to me because I’m bad” then that keeps a glimmer of hope alive. There remained the possibility that you could change—become “good”.

Frozen in time

Unfortunately, those feelings of shame are now frozen in time.  They have not adjusted for the facts that you are now grown up, you have many more resources available to you, and you have many more ways of protecting yourself.

So, they are still protecting you, continually scanning for situations where you may risk hurt, dismissal, or disregard. 

That’s why, when you get close to friend or a lover, shame comes in. “Better feel you don’t deserve to be loved” it says, “ because he might hurt you! Better not get close! “

Or, when your boss treats you poorly, shame tells you “ Feel worthless now. It is safer than standing up for yourself, or not accepting his judgements about  your work”.

Especially,  shames threatens to engulf you when you start to do what is really good for you, what would really help you.  “Don’t dare to think that you deserve good things”, it says. “You wanted to be seen and valued when you were little, and look how hurt you got. Don’t go there again”.

Ok. So how do I deal with this?

The key in reducing the amount of time shame has a hold on you is in recognizing those two things:

1)   shame came into your life to protect you

2)   it is now frozen in time, acting as if your circumstances haven’t changed.

To both reduce the shame, and “unthaw it”, allow yourself to recognize what it was like for you as a child.

Possible strategies include: 

·   Look at small children, see their innocence and vulnerability. Recognize that you were that innocent and vulnerable too. Allow that recognition to enter into your being, and feel whatever feelings that come along with that (rage, sadness, hurt, despair, etc)

·   Write a letter to your hurt little child, telling her/him how much you love him/her, and how you are her for him/her now. Let the hurt child answer back. Start a dialogue.

·   In your imagination, meet your child in the time/place where he/she is frozen and offer unconditional love. 

·   Get a sense of where this hurt little child part lives in your body, and place a hand on that location, offering support and care. 

When to get help?

If your shame is not too strong,  you may be able to use those strategies on your own.  If you do, you’’ll probably find them very helpful.

However, if your shame is very strong, because the maltreatment you experienced was intense or prolonged, you will likely need some help. 

This is not because you are flawed. Rather it is because you lived through hard times of such magnitude that shame had to be real strong to protect you as best it could.

I am a bit of a shame expert, and have helped many people recover from crippling shame. They have regained their joy for life. So, when you are ready, please contact me at 250 515 2123 or use the pop-up box for a free consultation. I would be delighted to help you regain the good life you deserve!

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I Have PTSD. What Does that Mean? ... And What Can I Do To Recover?

You may feel you are going nuts, but actually your brain is doing its best to cope with the overwhelming experiences that happened to you.

Good PTSD treatment can help your brain do that better, so that your life can go back to normal.

In some ways it can feel like a relief to have a name for what is going on for you.

But, in other ways, being given the PTSD label may make you feel like this is something permanent. 

Perhaps you worry that you can’t recover.  

I’m here to tell you that there’s lots of hope. 

You may feel you are going nuts, but actually your brain doing its best to cope with the overwhelming experiences that happened to you.

Good PTSD treatment can help your brain do that better, so that your life can go back to normal.

A good first step on your healing journey is to understand why you have the symptoms you have.

PTSD Symptoms Explained:

1. Re-experiencing the traumatic event through flashbacks or nightmares:

This is the way your brain has for dealing with problems: it keeps bringing them up so you can think about them, re-examine them and solve them.

That’s why you mind might be racing at night, and why it may be hard to get to sleep or stay asleep.

The problem is that that traumatic memories are too overwhelming—flashbacks and nightmares don’t help you heal.

2. Re-experiencing the trauma when triggered,  feeling hyper-vigilant,  and getting startled easily:

Because what happened to you was so overwhelming, your brain wants to make sure it doesn’t happen again. So, it places these trauma memories in a “red alert” file, keeping them permanently alive. 

This means that your brain is all the time scanning for situations that are a little bit similar to the trauma. That can put you on hyper-alert, make you startle easily, and and may lead you to getting triggered by small things.

3. Trying to avoid reminders of the trauma:

Getting triggered and having flashbacks can be very distressing, so it makes sense that your system (body, mind, senses, and emotions) want to try to avoid any reminders of the trauma.

The trouble is that this may make your life feel constrained and stunted.

4. Feeling disconnected, listless, disinterested and numb:

Trying to keep the trauma memories bottled up takes a lot of energy.

This is the energy that you normally would have available for the people you love and the activities you care about, but now that energy is used up.

5. Feeling like you don’t have a future: It is common for people who have experienced trauma to feel like they won’t live long, won’t get married, have children, have a career.

This is your mind’s way of trying to protect you—if you don’t expect much, you won’t get as hurt again.

6. Difficulty concentrating:

Because a big part of your mind is focused on the trauma, and making sure it doesn’t happen again, it may be really hard to focus on anything else.

7. Feeling irritable or angry outbursts

In order to survive the trauma, your brain released neuro-chemicals into your system to allow you fight, flee or freeze. 

When these neuro-chemicals keep circulating in your body, you feel irritable or angry.

How PTSD Treatment Helps:

The key to effective PTSD therapy is to calm down your stress response system, so your brain and body stops acting as if the traumatic events are about happen again.  

When your stress response is no longer on hyper-alert, your entire system relaxes.

The stress neuro-chemicals stop pumping through your body. Your flashbacks and nightmares stop, your irritability and anger diminish, your interest and zest for life returns, and you can envision a positive future again.

The most effective way to achieve this is to move the trauma memories from the “red alert file” to “just some bad things that happened in the past”. Good PTSD therapy can help you to do this.

That may sound scary, because the last thing you probably want to do is to re-live those memories. 

Please know that there is a huge difference between the reliving your trauma in your flashbacks and nightmares, and the re-processing that occurs in skilled trauma therapy.

Experienced trauma therapists know how to pace therapy just right so you truly are not overwhelmed, but rather can approach those hurtful moments from a place of strength, courage and safety. 

I invite you to look at the trauma and PTSD resources on my website.  When you are ready, call me or use the pop-up box to schedule a free consult.

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Should I Have Contact With Family Members Who Were Abusive?

I am writing this a few days before Christmas. This is the time we are supposed to spend time with loved ones. Typically that means our family and our friends.

But what do you do about contact with family if your parents or other family members maltreated you?

I am writing this a few days before Christmas. This is the time we are supposed to spend time with loved ones. Typically that means our family and our friends.

But what do you do about contact with family if your parents or other family members maltreated you?

For many people this is a complex issue. Often, you’ll have lots of mixed feelings about it. 

One the one hand, you may have lots of reasons why you want to spend time with your family.

You may crave that close family feeling--- especially if you didn’t have it growing up.

You have probably also been told you need to forgive to move on. To you, that may mean spending time with those who maltreated you.

You may care deeply about the person who maltreated you, or the person who didn’t protect you. You may want to show them the kindness you didn’t receive.

There are probably also other family members who you want to spend time with, and you may feel that you have to “take the bad with the good”.

On the other hand, there may be other reasons why you want to stay away.

It is easy to fall into a family pattern of silence and denial. You may be invited to pretend the abuse didn’t happen, or wasn’t “very serious”.  That kind of minimizing can be very hurtful to you.

You may also feel very hurt and angry, and have a hard time tolerating being around denial, and perhaps even ongoing abusive behaviours.

It is also likely that spending any prolonged time in an unhealthy family system triggers you back into earlier behaviours. You may start to act in ways you don’t like and say things you’ll regret.

Many  adult survivors of childhood abuse talk about how long it takes to recover from family visits.

So, how do you balance all these conflicting feelings and thoughts? How do you decide what kind of family interaction is best for you?

Deciding How Much Contact to Have

Ultimately, no one can decide how much contact you should have. That choice is yours to make.  Here are some questions that can help you sort it out.

First, is it safe?

Is your family free of abuse now?  If you bring your children to see their extended family, are you sure they are safe?  Do you get belittled, put down, or demeaned when you are with family? Do others get treated poorly?

Do you start to engage in harmful behaviours, such as alcohol or substance misuse?

If it doesn’t seem safe---for you or others--- then it is almost always best to not go.  The harm to you will likely overshadow any benefit.

Second, do you feel good after the visit?

Do you feel refreshed and relaxed, reflecting back on the enjoyable time you had? Or, do you feel tense and irritable? Or maybe you feel tired, spaced out, depressed or anxious?

If the visit is causes you distress, it may be a good idea to at least minimize the time you spend with your family.  Instead of going for a three-day visit, maybe a short lunch or dinner will suffice.

Third, how is your family climate?

Have the people who maltreated you taken full and genuine responsibility for their behaviour? Have they made amends? Have they begun their own healing journey? Are you able to have honest discussions about your feelings and experiences now?

If you are fortunate enough to have this kind of family, visits are likely to be positive, supportive, and helpful. All of us make mistakes. The main things are to take responsibility and do the hard work to change.

If your family is no longer overtly abusive, but there are all kinds of under-currents about blame and denial, you may want to consider avoiding or minimizing contact.

Honour Yourself

Please know that is totally ok to choose to not spend time with your family. It is also ok to limit the time to what works for you.  When you were little, you didn’t have choice in what happened to you. Now, you can reclaim that control.

Also, planning time for self-care afterwards is important. This may include therapy, time with supportive friends, time in nature, or something else that reinforces who you are today.

If you are struggling with making good decisions about your family relationships, I’m here to help. Please call me or use the pop-up box to book a free consult.  I look forward to hearing from you!

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Living with Intense Loneliness: Elizabeth's Story

Do you assume that people won’t like you?

Then, thinking that you are not good enough, do you isolate yourself, and end up feeling lonely?

Do you assume that people won’t like you? Then, thinking that you are not good enough, do you isolate yourself, and end up feeling lonely?

Maybe you’ve tried to combat this pattern by forcing yourself into social situations? And, then, when you are in these social situations, do you feel awkward or phony?

Or perhaps, because you feel so badly about yourself, you are surrounded by people who are “takers”?  

These situations can leave you feeling very alone. Unseen, unappreciated, and unvalued.

This is a tough place to be.

Research tells us that all of us have a strong need to be valued, seen and appreciated. When you don’t receive this, the most vital part of you curls up and goes into hiding.

Let me tell you about Elizabeth*, and what she did to turn her life around.

Elizabeth’s Story

Elizabeth had felt that she wasn’t pretty enough, smart enough or worthy of attention most of her life. 

She had been told, over and over again by her parents, that the “good life “ was “not for people like her”. The best she could expect was to get by, and she’d be “lucky to  find anyone who’d marry her”.

It wasn’t that her parents wished her ill, but they were  brash and extrovert by nature. Consequently, they were baffled by Elizabeth’s sensitivity and introvert tendencies.

They thought that someone with her traits would be crushed by the “real world” and sought to protect her by telling her to reduce her expectation and her reach.

And it worked. Elizabeth made her life small.

She had a job she didn’t really like, doing something she didn’t care about, had friends that she---when she was honest with herself—found intensely boring.  

She had a brash, extrovert boyfriend who really didn’t pay attention to her needs, wants or interests.  Often, Elizabeth felt like his unpaid maid rather than a life partner.

Her loneliness was intense,  especially in the small hours of the night.

Sometimes,  positive change takes the guise of disaster. So it was for Elizabeth.

In the course of few hours two devastating things happened to her. She lost her job, and coming home early, she found her boyfriend in bed with another woman.

She felt like a complete failure.  All she wanted to do was to crawl into bed, hide under the covers, and stay there forever. 

But, rather than completely giving into her feelings of worthlessness, she reached out for help.

The Journey to Feeling Connected

Elizabeth came into therapy expecting that I would give her some kind of pep-talk, try to reason her out of her low self-esteem, and then get frustrated when she failed to “recover”.

Instead, we spent time in discovery, finding out about all the different aspects of Elizabeth.  Her interests, her thoughts, her wishes, and her dreams. At first it was hard for her to articulate these things, because she was not used to being heard.

Over time, she discovered that the low self-esteem was just a part of her.

She also had many other parts, such as creativity, joy, anger, determination, a great sense of humour, and a zest for life.

Most surprisingly, she connected to an inner well-spring of confidence and calm, which became her source of courage and energy as she moved forward.

She discovered an interest and aptitude for writing, and eventually found work as a blogger. She loved it!

Even more, she re-awakened her love of animals, volunteered at the local animal shelter, and adopted two small dogs who had experienced much abuse.  Learning how to get them to trust again made her feel of real worth, and she made friends with similar interests and values. 

They were not boring at all.

There were lots of difficult steps, such as grieving the limited relationship with her parents and reducing her contact with them.

Within 8 months, Elizabeth didn’t feel alone anymore. She was connected to friends who cared about her and animals who loved her. Her life felt full of meaning and worth. 

When to get help

Often the first step to changing ingrained patterns is to take one small step into something unfamiliar, something that you actually want.

For some, that is not too difficult, whereas for others, that’s when the low self-esteem messages become very loud.  If that is what happens to you, this may be a good time to get some help.

Otherwise, it is possible that your attempts to make changes will be sabotaged by your low self-esteem. 

Therapy can help stop that self-sabotage, and create lasting improvements, like it did for Elizabeth.

When you are ready, I invite you to call me at 250 515 2123 or contact me through the pop-up box on my website.  I look forward to hearing from yo

* Elizabeth is a pseudonym, and the details have been modified for privacy.

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PTSD Treatment and Trauma Therapy: How Long Does It Take to Heal?

It may also help you to know that most people who enter trauma therapy do some work, and then go off to experience life with their new sense of relief and confidence. 

You are probably not surprised to learn the short answer is “depends”.Still, it makes sense that you’d like to have some kind of ballpark answer. As well, once you know something about what the duration depends on, you’ll have a clearer idea of where you fit in.It may also help you to know that most people who enter PTSD treatment do some work, and then go off to experience life with their new sense of relief and confidence.Some time later, they may re-enter trauma therapy because new issues have come up, or they want to deepen the gains they made earlier.

When Therapy Can Be Quick:

Trauma therapy can be very quick if you experienced a single incident trauma, such as a car-accident.  For many clients, the impact of these kinds of experiences can resolve in just a few sessions.Things that complicate the recovery from single incident trauma are lack of supportive people your life or the one-time trauma is connected to other traumas, or if you are a person who reacts strongly to distressing events.Therapy can also be fast if the trauma you experienced was more than a one-time incident, but relatively minor, and you received effective support immediately after the trauma.  Relatively minor traumas can include bullying, divorce, and non-contact sexual abuse by a stranger.A third way that trauma therapy can be speedy is if the goal you want to reach is limited. For instance, if your only goal through trauma therapy is to sleep better, it is possible to achieve that in a short period of time.  Again, this depends on what the trouble with sleep is connected to.  If you have trouble sleeping today because your safety depended on staying awake, then until you feel safe today, that trouble will likely remain. If you have trouble sleeping because your mind is racing, that may be faster to curtail.Recovery can also be speeded up if you have a strong support system today, such as trusted, caring friends or a supportive life-partner.  If you have a healthy, positive spirituality, that can also be a powerful aid in your healing journey. As well, if you are able to engage in good self-care, such as eating well, sleeping enough, and spending lots of time in nature, these will help speed up the benefits of therapy.

When Therapy Can Take Longer:

Trauma therapy often takes longer if you experienced multiple instances of maltreatment. This includes physical abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, and chronic physical or emotional neglect.If you were very vulnerable when the maltreatment happened, the harm will likely have gone deeper. Consequently, the younger you were, the greater the likelihood that therapy will take longer.Also, if the person who hurt you was someone you were supposed to be able to trust, the harm is intensified. This includes a parent, step-parent, caregiver, a teacher, or other adult in a position of trust.  These kinds of “betrayal traumas” typically take time to recover from.Similarly, healing can take longer if someone was supposed to protect you and failed to do so.  Or, when you disclosed the abuse, the response was poor.  If you were blamed or not believed, recovery may take time.

How Long is “Longer”?

In many Aboriginal cultures, there is a custom of cutting off one’s hair when faced with a major loss such as the death of a spouse.  Part of the purpose of this ritual is to help mark the time needed to recover.  Once the hair has grown back out, the person is more likely able to move on.  That length of time is about two years.There is a similar time-line for deep recovery from significant trauma. These days trauma specialists know how to help people heal as quickly as possible. As a result, people can complete the bulk of their healing journey in a shorter time period.Although healing is a life-long journey for many, most don’t work with a therapist for extended periods.  After a while, you re-gain enough of your own healing resources to go it alone, with the natural supports available to you.My goal is to help you recover as quickly as is feasible, and to get you to a place where you no longer need a therapist to support you as fast as possible.Please explore the other great materials on my website. When you are ready, I invite you to call me at 250-515-2123 or use the pop-up box to schedule a free 15-minute consultation. It would be my great pleasure to support you on your healing journey!

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Self-Compassion: Honouring Your Will to Survive

When something goes wrong, do you tend to blame yourself? Are you generous about the quirks and mishaps of your friends, but much harder on yourself? 

When something goes wrong, do you tend to blame yourself? Are you generous about the quirks and mishaps of your friends, but much harder on yourself?Do you take care of the needs of others while you drive yourself to the ground?People who struggle with self-compassion tend to answer yes to these kinds of questions.If you have experienced trauma, and especially if you were maltreated as a child, odds are high that you are very self-critical. Even if you intellectually know you were not to blame for the trauma, your emotional self tends to believe otherwise.It can feel very frustrating to continually bump up against this seemingly self-destructive tendency.

A New Perspective

The amazing thing is that what is actually driving your self-criticism is something life affirming and even heroic.  Let me explain.As humans, we all need to belong. Next to the need for food and shelter, that is one of our greatest needs.  That’s why children who are not touched or paid attention to enough stop growing, and some even die.Because the need to belong is so strong, we will do most anything to feel connected to others. The younger we are, the stronger this biological need.  If we are abused or not protected by trusted adults, we will blame ourselves rather than risk loosing our connection.Here’s an example to clarify what I mean:Since little Mary’s father came back from Afghanistan, he has been struggling with depression and alcoholism. When he drinks, he can become very abusive.  Today is a bad day for him and he’s been drinking since he woke up, but Mary doesn’t know that.She comes home from pre-school and eagerly wants to re-connect with her pre-war dad, the dad of her dreams. She runs up to him, hoping to get picked up and told what a beautiful princess she is. Instead, he recoils from her embrace, and yells, “Get away from me, you disgusting brat!”Mary loves her father, and she needs to believe that he is capable, trustworthy, and safe.  Because, if he is not those things, then who will care for her?So, she decides, immediately and unconsciously, that she is to blame.   A deeply hidden part of her now holds the belief that she is flawed, disgusting and therefore deserving of rejection.By believing this, she is achieving two essential goals:  by making her dad right she can maintain her connection to him, and by making his rejection her fault she creates hope that she can change enough to become lovable and worthy of care.Think about the sheer, desperate heroism of this little girl. Faced with an impossible situation and an untenable choice, she does the best she can.She picks up the crippling burdens of self-criticism and self-hatred to preserve her relationship with the father she loves with all her heart. How can you not have compassion for her?Here’s the key point---your self-criticism served the same purpose.At some point in your life, you were forced to make the same “no-choice” choice as little Mary.  You had to decide to be harsh toward yourself to preserve connection, hope and the possibility of safety.Is it not time to start appreciating what you had to do to make the best of a very bad situation?

How Do I Learn to be Kinder to Myself?

The key to self-compassion is to allow yourself to feel empathy for your most wounded parts, and the last-ditch defenses you had to devise to make your life as liveable as possible.These strategies can help increase your self-compassion:1)   Write yourself a letter.  Imagine what the kindest, wisest person you know would say to the small, hurt child you once were. Write that down. Read it to yourself as often as you can.2)   Comfort yourself. Place a hand over your heart, and allow yourself to feel the sadness of the difficult choices you had to make, and the comfort of the physical warmth of your touch. This is an especially useful practice during moments of self-criticism.3)   Develop a meditation practice. Through meditation, you can learn to experience peace and relaxation, allowing the self-critical thoughts to fade away.As you become increasingly comfortable with self-compassion, your self-critical thoughts will become less frequent, less harsh, and quieter.When you are able to express kindness toward yourself, the part of you that was forced to choose self-disregard will gradually awaken to the idea that those choices are no longer necessary.

 Is It Time To Get Help?

For some people, developing self-compassion is fairly easy. They can readily feel compassion for little Mary in the example above, and can translate that compassion into care for themselves.Some people have a harder time with this.  If you find that you can have compassion for other children, but not yourself when you were a child, this would be a time to get some help.It doesn’t mean you are actually flawed, only that you had many experiences reinforcing the need for self-criticism.  Together we can gently un-pack this need, until you too are able to honour the harrowing survival decisions you were forced to make.I invite you to read the other blogs on my website, complete the quizzes and look at the webinars.When you are ready, call me at 250-515-2123 or use the pop up box to schedule a free 15-minute consultation. It would be a great pleasure to support you on your healing journey!

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